4 Years

Four years ago on this very day I thought it was impossible to be any happier. Little did I know then that every year with you my life would become even fuller of joy.

Last week we had drinks in the house where we went on our first date (what was then Ethan's and now Kennedy's) - it was the first time I had revisited that spot since then. I will never forget that night, over 7 years ago, when I had a vision of us one day marrying. I never admitted it to anyone until we actually wed, and even now as I remember that feeling so well, it still feels strange to say that I knew you were the one on our first date.

I recently looked back at my journal from that year. I wrote about that night saying, "We clearly had all the same interests...we were just on the same page. I was pretty much sold that night." Later I wrote, "He's not what I expected-- I always thought 'my guy' would be a little taller, louder, more the center of attention type. Brian is really a carbon-copy of me, just in boy form. He is just such a good guy and it feels so right."

Brian, when I married you I knew that you would always treat me well, make me feel beautiful and make me laugh. I even knew that you would be an incredible father and I had a pretty good idea that we would make darn cute kids (well, we made one cute kid for sure!). I knew there would be good times and bad, and I had confidence that we would ride through them together and support each other always.

But, I didn't know just how happy my life would be with you in it.